Harden not your hearts


Our Lady of Sorrows by Kathleen Carr

As has just been said: “Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion.” Hebrews 3:15


Beloved Child,
I am Our Lady of Sorrows.  My heart is Sorrowful.  My son’s heart is Sorrowful.
My Son wants everyone to receive him.  But in order to receive, you have to be empty of pride.  Many come to the table and demand.  They demand who they do not know without thought of the gift or the sacrifice.  This demand does not enable them to receive. They drink judgment on themselves and their hearts of stone.  Oh how Sorrowful this makes us.  And many of my Shepherds don’t lead.  They allow the flock to wallow in sin, never walking with people to true contrition and speaking of truth.  This makes my heart weep.
Haven’t you yet realized?
The will of the Father and the Human will intersect on the cross.  The top of the cross points to heaven.  On the horizontal the Human will outstretched from the heart to the arms.  Human will openly handed to God.  Totally empty in order to be filled.  Filled with LIFE.  The Divine will will reign on earth as it is in heaven when you embrace your cross and truly receive.  This is how you console our hearts.
My Immaculate Heart will triumph because the Father wills it.
Be contrite.  Be thankful.  Do not be afraid.  Receive what My Son gives you.
-the Immaculata

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My Five Wounds


Matthias Grunewald – Crucifixion panel

Behold the Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world.  John 1:29



I took on the sins of the world.  My 5 wounds show this.  The world has fallen and sin and death are part of it because of the fall.

For every lash in my body when I was scourged, I felt your cancer and sickness.  All forms of physical illness that were unleashed because of the fall.  I feel your pain as you suffer.  I feel the pain of those abused at the hands of another.

When my head was crowned with thorns, I knew every impure thought, and prideful thought my people undergo.  I even know the mental illness.

When my hands were pierced, I knew every time you grabbed that drug, stole that item, clicked that link to pornography, abused that person.  Nailing yourself down, enslaved to sin.

When my feet were nailed I knew every sinful place you walked to, every bed of adultery, every brothel house, every place of greed that nails you down to sin.

When my heart was pierced, I knew every hard heart that rejects my love and refuses to repent.  Causing wars and rumors of wars.

Look at my 5 wounds and know I KNOW.



Yet in all of these things I know, look at my 5 wounds and KNOW MY LOVE.

My love knows you completely and loves you completely.

My love can break you free of the sin that nails you down.  My love can heal the sickness sin let in the world.

Look at my 5 wounds and receive not condemnation, but grace, humility, charity, faith, hope and love.

These 5 wounds will set you free.  Abandon yourself to me.

– Your Divine Spouse ***


***Author’s note:

I write what pops in my head as letters from God.
I wrote this as a reflection of what I thought God was saying to me.
I was taught to journal this way by my Spiritual Director.  He said as long as it doesn’t stray from Scripture and the magisterium of the Church, I can write what pops in my head while I am praying.  This actually popped in my head while praying the Sorrowful Mysteries of the Rosary.
From time to time I share some of my entries on my blog.


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Divine Hope


Christ at Emmaus – Rembrant




Do you still not trust me?  Take the Road to Emmaus with Me.  When I encountered my disciples on that road they stated, “we had hoped that he was the one who was going to redeem Israel.”  Their hope was so different than Divine Hope.  Their dreams not nearly as large.  My dreams over you are bigger than your own.  How many times in your limited understanding have you “hoped” only to have the situation be so completely different than you had “hoped”?  Different, but better, because MY HOPE is better than anything you can possibly ever imagine.  Be in my NOW.  Rest your hope there.  The trials and sufferings you are enduring are not all for naught.  It is your betrothal to me.  The preparation for the Divine Marriage.  My will in you.  My kingdom come.  When you find yourself in doubt, you must simply only look to the breaking of the bread, and there you can recognize me.  Remember the great things I have done for you.  You are my beloved.  Do not fear.  I am with you always.

Luke 24

  • Your Divine Spouse
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Mercy is Not Tolerance



Cleansing the Temple Carl Heinrich Bloch, 1875


Guest Post By: Ashley Blackburn


“I desire mercy, not sacrifice” – Matthew 9:13


Have we turned this very beautiful phrase said by Jesus into an excuse for tolerance? Mercy and tolerance are two very separate things.  Venerable Fulton Sheen spoke about tolerance, calling it “an attitude of reasoned patience toward evil.” He goes on to say “tolerance applies only to persons… never to the truth.”  There is one truth. It is absolute and everlasting.  It is in all things because it created all things and it will forever be.  The question is, do we believe in it, do we trust in it, do we recognize God through it?

The devil knows that the path of truth is straight and narrow.  He is the one who clouds the road and provides many opportunities for us to turn off the straight path.  He leads us down unclear roads with many turns; roads that eventually lead to destruction.  But God is always with us and he makes good out of all things.  He constantly invites us back on the straight path of his truth through his abundant mercy.  We must keep our eyes on Christ and let him lead us.

Often times we choose certain truths to follow and others to deny; mainly the ones that are seemingly too hard to understand and/or to follow. In our struggle with these truths we oftentimes don’t think to turn to God, asking for him to reveal to us a better understanding of the truth.  Jesus himself tells us in Matthew 7:7-8, “Ask, and it will be given you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.”  Jesus was telling us something so much deeper here than asking for what we want or need in prayer.  He was showing us how to ask him to lead us into a deeper understanding and communion with himself, in which Jesus is the fullness of the truth.  In this passage, Jesus is telling us to turn to him when we get stuck, when we don’t understand something, when we are confused by the cloudiness, when our hearts are restless, and when the seeds of doubt enter our minds.  The promise made to us is that Jesus is ever-willing and ready to draw us closer to himself, but we have to ASK him to do so.  He will never force us into deeper communion with him, it must be our desire as well.

In our world, certain situations cloud the truth and in our limited understanding of God’s mercy we turn to tolerance as a means to show love and acceptance for all God’s children. This cloudiness creates a situation where in our desire to love our neighbor, we in turn accept sinfulness by way of tolerance.  Jesus specifically commands us to love our neighbor, but he does not at any time command us to tolerate sin.  Through his abundant mercy, he forgives those who seek mercy, as well as those who seek mercy for another.  What we do not find anywhere in the Gospels is Jesus forgiving those who are not seeking forgiveness. Just take a look at the Pharisees, they no less needed God’s mercy than anyone else he encountered.  The difference is they did not believe they needed his mercy and so they were not open to receiving it.  Jesus would have readily forgiven any one of them if they would have turned to him and asked for forgiveness.

God’s mercy is abundant. God’s mercy is for all humanity. God’s mercy is always available, complete and necessary for our salvation. It is HIS deepest desire that we receive his mercy and so he is unconditionally generous in the outpouring of mercy. But what we oftentimes miss is that God’s mercy requires an open receiver in order to penetrate the heart.  So we must ask ourselves, is my heart open to receiving his mercy?

In Matthew 13:1-9 we hear the parable of the sower.  The sower sowed seeds on the path, which were eaten up by the birds, then on the rocky ground, which sprung up immediately and were scorched by the sun, then amongst the thorns, which grew and were eventually choked up by the thorns, and finally on good soil, which brought forth an abundance of grain.  Jesus is showing us through this parable the different receivers that we are and how important it is to cultivate an open and ready heart in order to receive his mercy and love, which will in turn bear fruit.  This parable reminds us that our cooperation with God is paramount.  God is constantly sowing seeds amongst all of humanity, but are we open and ready to receive his gifts?

This is another way in which the world confuses tolerance with mercy.  St. Pope John Paul the Great in his apostolic exhortation Familiaris Consortio talks about the ‘gradualness of the law,’ and warns us of its effects in creating “different degrees or forms of precept in God’s law for different individuals and situations.”  The truth does not apply differently to different people. Tolerating the sins of some because of their situation or their temptations is not mercy.  Instead it actually attacks their very dignity to the core – for we are all created in the image and likeness of God and we are all made for truth.

God reveals himself to us through the truth.  To say that one person’s temptation is too extreme, or another’s hardship is too much, so we should lower the standard for them is wrong and a very dangerous slippery slope.  Read the lives of the saints.  These holy men and women, despite incredible persecution and suffering, lived the truth.  They trusted in the truth and made it a priority to keep their hearts open to receiving God’s mercy and love. We too must not give up on the truth! The truth will set us free from the bondage of sin.


Imagine God’s mercy being like the rain falling upon all of humanity at the same time and in the same measure.  But who of us can say our hearts are ready and open to receiving the rain and letting it penetrate deep into us, to nourish the seeds of truth.  The open receivers, the ones who have cultivated good soil in their hearts, are those humble souls who have recognized their dependence on God and are able to see where they have turned away from him through sin.  These souls are the ones who stand in the rain and receive his mercy, they no longer desire to run away to find shelter from the rain.  And so we see here that our participation as receivers is necessary.

We are not simply bystanders where God’s mercy falls upon us and without our desire or knowledge we are cleansed; eliminating the need for us to turn away from our sinfulness and turn back to God. Instead, God has given us free will in order for us to CHOOSE to turn to him, which by doing so we are turning away from sin.  We CHOOSE to ready our hearts in order to receive his mercy and allow the seeds of truth to take root,  bearing the fruit of understanding.

In all of this, we can be assured that God does not change and so God’s law, the truth, does not change.  The truth is not an ideal that is out of our reach and so we settle for less.  The truth is the fullness. God invites each and every one of us to live in the fullness of the truth.  Even though we are unable to remain in the truth on our own accord, when we humbly ask God to help us live in union with his divine will, we are given what we need to be able to live in the truth.  It is God who reaches down to us in our weakness to lift us up, but it is only when we open our arms to him and allow him to lift us up that we are raised off the ground. May we always strive to live in the truth, trusting in his abundant mercy and love.

“And so, from the day we heard of it, we have not ceased to pray for you, asking that you may be filled with the knowledge of his will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, to lead a life worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to him, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God.” – Colossians 1:9-10


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The Dual attack


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“Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world.” 1 Peter 5:8-9

The father of lies attacks the human will, intellect, and memory in one of two ways.

He tempts one to make a god of himself.  Convincing the man of his intellectual obesity and rightness in comparison to his fellow man.  This attack compels one to look inward in pride.  This attack creates hard hearts.  Hard hearts turn to warring and dictatorship.  Evil flourishes through subjugation and oppression,  bringing the demise of souls through this evil.  Making families be destroyed.  Destroying communities and nations.

If the father of lies realizes a soul is too compassionate to harden their heart he attacks the core of their very person, convincing them they are worthless and sending them into despair.  This spiral of depression also destroys families, communities and nations.  The ultimate goal of this kind of attack is to make the soul go so into despair, they kill themselves as the final conclusion to the worthlessness they feel.

God rejects both of these because none of it brings unity.  The soul that is secure in God’s love for them, neither boasts of himself nor despairs of himself.  This is because God has  revealed to those that listen that looking inward during these temptations is what brings destruction.  God compels us to look outward.  Look toward the other.  This outward looking toward the other is true love.  It rests securely in The Father’s love so it recognizes the beauty of sacrifice for the other.  This sacrifice is thankful.  This sacrifice is born of the Eucharist which means Thanksgiving.

Do not boast because everything we have is a gift from God.  Do not despair because you are loved.

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Clothed in the Sun

Mary and Adoration


Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect. Matthew 5:48

As you all know, in my prayer over the past couple of years God has been showing me this image;

communion cross with sun

It is very similar to the back of the miraculous medal;

miraculous medal

In focusing on the differences, I felt like God was telling me that the Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart beat in unison, and that is why, for me, the hearts are touching.  I feel like God actually wants my heart there too, a Trinity of beating in unison.  My heart (and yours) united to the Sacred and Immaculate Heart.  I felt like He also told me Mary is totally in union with the Trinity, and that the church is our Anchor, which is why there was an anchor in the image I saw.  What I couldn’t really figure out was, why I saw a sun, instead of stars.  To me, both are representative of creation, so I asked God, why a sun in my image?  He answered me when I read the writings of Luisa Piccarreta.   She said the sun represents Gods will.

Everyday we should be praying the prayer that Jesus taught us.  But what do we mean when we say, “thy will be done on earth, as it is in heaven”?  I have pondered this a lot.  In these tumultuous times we live in, I see a beast taking over.  It is a beast of fear.  But God repeatedly says to me, “Do not be afraid, Susan.”  He tells me over and over to Trust.  I know that we will face, and are facing much suffering.  But he shows me that to be in His will, we must get there as Jesus did, through the cross.

Today’s Gospel said, “be perfect as your heavenly Father is perfect.”  How in the world do we do that?  It is done through the emptying of our human will, so we can receive God’s will.  I think Saints like Padre Pio were but a glimmer of this.  In emptying through suffering he was actually given extraordinary power.  He sought to be last, but that is what made him great.  He was obedient in persecution, something most of us know nothing about.

I think God wants to restore us.  To bring us a “new heaven and a new earth (Rev 21)“, one where we are clothed in God’s will.  One where, because God is in us, we will be in union, and we will live love.  I want to share with you what I wrote in my journal on Trinity Sunday;

June 11, 2016


I created them male and female.  They were clothed in MY WILL.  Clothed in the sun.  Sacrifice is always required in true love because it is a giving and receiving.  Sacrifice the fruit of the tree.  They did not.   Their garment was torn in two.  They were no longer clothed in the sun.  They knew they were naked.  I had to send My Son, in union with Me and the Spirit, totally Trinity, to undo what had been done.  His garment remained seamless because He is always clothed in the sun.  His sacrifice tore the temple veil in two.  The place that led back to me.  I send the Mother, clothed in the sun, with the moon at her feet and a crown of twelve stars.  She is clothed in creation because she is in union with it.  Just as I want you to be.  Back in union with MY WILL.  United with the Trinity.  My Son is the Redeemer, I want you in the Sacred Heart.  She is the map to Him.  The Celestial Map.  Her Immaculate Heart will triumph.  You are created male and female in Our Image.  Confusion will disperse and the garment will be seamless once again.


I am but a messenger and I know that our God is a God of hope and of love.  In our sufferings we must cling to DIVINE HOPE, and not hope in the things of man.  Divine Hope will show us that it is possible to live His Will on earth as it is in Heaven, and I think we will all be amazed.  So DO NOT BE AFRAID, and surrender your will to His, and most of all TRUST.

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The Mediocrity of Apathy

Holy Face of Jesus

The Holy Face of Jesus – Look at the Face of Radical Love

 “Do not think that I have come to abolish the law or the prophets. I have come not to abolish but to fulfill.  Amen, I say to you, until heaven and earth pass away, not the smallest letter or the smallest part of a letter will pass from the law, until all things have taken place.  Therefore, whoever breaks one of the least of these commandments and teaches others to do so will be called least in the kingdom of heaven. But whoever obeys and teaches these commandments will be called greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”  Matthew 5:17-19


Recently I have had multiple conversations with fellow Christians.  The conversations have all started to sound the same and they go something like this;

Me: we have to stand up against immorality.

Them: well, Jesus loves everyone, not being a sinner is not a pre-requisite of his love. Live and let live.

Me: Jesus didn’t leave people in their sin.  He transformed them.  Of course he loves everyone, but the question becomes do you love Him back?  Because Jesus Himself tells us, “if you love me, you will keep my commandments.” John 14:15

Them: silence.

It is in these moments that I see what Saint John Paul the Great talked about as the gradualness of the law.  The essence of what the Great Saint was saying is that people tend to see the rules in the church as hard so they tell people that’s okay, Jesus loves you, and they lower the bar for that person, thereby keeping that person from moral truth.

John Paul II said this is an affront to the dignity of the human being.  Lowering the bar essentially says, you’re not capable of being a great Saint.  But God begs to differ and calls all of us to Sainthood.   Despite our failures, God always continues to love us, but to give up and not even try blocks Gods grace from transforming us.

Jesus ABSOLUTELY DOES LOVE THE SINNER, but you know what He doesn’t do, leave the sinner who personally encounters Him in a wallowing of sin.  The Samaritan woman recognized the truth and told everyone about him.  He told the adulterous woman to, “…  Go, [and] from now on do not sin any more.” John 8:11.  He doesn’t want the sinner to stay stuck in his or her sin.  He wants radical conversion and transformation.  It is the most radical love in the world.  Is it hard?  Yes.  But he tells us to look to Him for that radical love.  How did he show that love?  On the cross.

When we lower the bar and tell people that sin is not actually sin, we are not showing them the God of miracles.  This is the God who can transform the porn addict or drug addict, rescue the prostitute, free the materially enslaved.

Lowering the bar actually leads to moral relativism where there is different truth for different people.  Doing this contradicts Christ Himself who said;

I am the way, the truth and the life.  John 14:16

Moral relativism also leads to apathy.  Apathy is the antithesis of what Christ wanted.  Christ was passionate.  Apathy doesn’t care about the sin of yourself or your neighbor.  Apathy leaves you stuck, at best, in a life of mediocrity.  At its worst, apathy can lead to the gas chamber.   Because if you’re not passionate about truth, and you don’t care what happens to your neighbor in an effort to live and let live, then you shouldn’t be shocked when your neighbor gets carted away when you didn’t stand up and fight for what’s true.

We are called to speak of Jesus and evangelize His truth with love.  Jesus loves the sinner.  Respond to that love, and let the King of Kings transform your life into a rich, passion filled life of joy.

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